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So this post has been long time coming, just that I didn't really want to. So most of you know that I had a flourishing career as a journalist in India, more than a decade ago, and then I moved to Germany. And that was THE END of what I always though I would do for the rest of my LIFE.

Okay so once the shock settled in that I can't be a journalist no more (I clearly hadn't thought this through when I got married and got swept into the romance of moving and exploring a new country)

And then 2 years later, I do a training in SAP and luckily land an internship in the same field. By now having not worked for almost 3 years, I was just kicked about going out each day and say that I finally could work!!!!
I obviously didn't think this through either, would I be any good at IT work (wasn't half bad), would it be something that I enjoyed (again not half bad).

But did I love waking up everyday and having a purpose! YES!
did I love getting dressed up as a consultant (fake it till you make it) everyday; HELL YES!
And more than that, even though I constantly crib about the struggle, the travel, the terrible German food in the canteen...I am more grateful than ever.

To be independent, to have interaction with international colleagues, to contribute, even though I might not be the best in my field.

Once upon a time, I was a journalist, on my way to be the best.
But now, being in the IT field, I know I will probably never be the best, and the struggle will always be there. But at the end of the day, its the struggles that make me who I am.

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This post is a followup on the post I made almost 10 years ago


https://ephemeralflower.blogspot.com/2010/05/guru-n-stuff-n-stories.html


I recently read through my blog which I now have more than 12 years (not all of them active, which I am planning to change currently) One of my most memorable post was this one. It was one of those golden times that are so hard to come by these days, when words just gush out of you so effortlessly as though waiting to be freed and flowing into poetry of perfection. I wouldn't add or change a single word more even I wanted.


12 years ago, I was a beginner on this path,
I hardly knew what it means to have a Guru, (not that I know now)
I was a simple child of 20-21
I had no idea I would grow so much in this path,
one day teach his courses in different parts of the world

12 year later, here I am still no more than a beginner,
no more closer to enlightenment
but still....

Being on this journey,
walking on this path
going through the ups and downs
The highest high and the lowest lows

Taking giant leaps, just to slide backwards.
A little more grownup,
a little more child-like
a bit wiser, and a whole lot more stronger

All in all, having found my life purpose
to follow my Guru to the end of the world.

Its not the goal, but this path with all its intensity and craziness.