Saturday, March 1, 2008

late morning

Just got done with Page 3 gupshup for Monday, so that's a load off head....yesterday eve was pathetic! i mean, i never ever can relate to hard core party crowd.
Its as if people are really trying hard to enjoy, but they soo not!
Its pretty painful really. I donno, i never wanna attend that kind of party anymore. But thanx to my job.....
Okay crib time over! tomorrow is sunday, so thats a relief...pathi was angry coz i slept in late and skipped breakfast coz i reached home so late last night.
The days i wake up late, dont go too well....ever!
Just wanna go home now and play my guitar till i finally get bar chords

Friday, February 29, 2008

Leap year day

Yesterday was fun, Sam came to TOI and would start freelancing for us, later we went and had coffee at barista, and bestest part was the satsang! I really really really missed my guitar, but have made up mind to go every week from now on. Today morning pathi dragged me out of bed at 7 am and made me go for a morning walk! Which I hate to admit was pretty good….sadhana went superb after that. And after the initial heavy-duty tantrums thrown by mind, it’s really not that bad…I realize that life’s pretty ordinary really, it’s the mind which sensationalizes it!

Yet another lazy day at work, gotta interview bally Sagoo in da eve, so that’s cool!

40 minutes later….

People envy my work, coz I get to party as a part of it…what they don’t realize that for me, my party begins the minute I close my eyes, and feel the presence. Am kinda hungry, wondering if can go grab a bite!
Oh also today is leap year day.Ooops forget to think of a bday gift for krish…gotta think of something soon!

Thursday, February 28, 2008

India's soft power

Just got off the phone with dad, and he had something really exciting to say," there'll be a huge wave of spirituality taking over the world", courtesy of course, HHSSRS and his Art of Living!
How brilliant is that...and to think we've got the head start! I'd love to see the faces of all those who pooh poohed spirituality eat their words.

What makes me special

28 February 2008

It’s the knowledge that makes all the difference; today what I read especially touched me
‘Are you special or ordinary?
What makes you special on the path? (Everyone is silent) Your perception, observation, and expression have advanced. What makes you ordinary on the path is that you are special! (Laughter) . . . . Because everybody thinks they are very special in some way or another! Your perception has improved. You see the cause behind every cause, the Divine, and you see the great plan behind every small plan. You don't see the intentions behind other’s mistakes and you are not a doubting Thomas.

Was just another boring day at work, nothing significant, and I wondered if there was anything to look forward at all. Was supposed to go visit mom and dad in ashram, but had to cancel it due to Bhasker’s wedding next Sunday. And now here I am at my desk feeling low.
But I’ve learnt how to take all these feelings and emotions lightly, as ‘they all rise and dissolve in the self due to our very nature’ (ashtavakra gita). And that’s why I can still smile even though I feel like bursting into tears. Life just feels so surreal at times, I mean am in a prolonged state of ‘hah! Big deal…’ like nothing surprises me or excites me or…I don’t know, I’d love sound glamourous by calling myself vairagi. But I know that I am far from that, I’d probably sell my soul for a hot chocolate fudge right now.