Thursday, December 14, 2006

Far and away

Remember seeing a movie of that title a real long time back
Tom cruise and Nicole Kidman,seemed like this perfect fairlytale couple!
but fairytales are seldom real.......

And my fairytale.....i guess i never had a fairytale, you know like a little personal dream that we all cherish.
Fear of losing those you loved.
As a kid i would wait endless hours for dad to come back, and then jumping into his arms.....
and when he finally did, i would freeze.Couldnt understand why he had to leave me so often and go away, why, he couldnt take me with him.
Even as i grew up and understood the demands of an army life, that part of me never quiet left.

Army life, taught me more than any formal education could ever have, it taught me how to smile under any circumstances, even when you're falling apart.

Moved from place to place, people changed, friends changed, relationships changed and most of all, i changed.
I didnt want friends anymore, why? only to leave them one day?
Parents hated pets...and my brother...well he just seemed too wierd at that time!

So i plunged myself into the world of books, lost in the land of fairies and enchanted lands where
i could slip away from the uncertainities of daily life.....Far and away.

Life's come a full circle, can no longer run away, I still read, but i read reality, i read the about the plight of farmers being displaced after decades of toiling on the only land they ever knew, what a mess the whole indian political sceanario is, the idea behind whole iraq study group is to cover the insecurities of the US, how the 123 agreement is the only thing thats keeping the whole nuclear deal with US from falling apart......

Now i know thats its not me who is falling apart, everything around me is.
Maybe i am there to fix that, to take the uncertainities in my life and change them into certainities in the environment around me, with all this who has the time to think about fairytales!

As for Nicole and Tom, they did go far......and away.